Thursday, February 17, 2011

on heartbreaks

When you hit a neighbor's window glass and it breaks, you hear the crashing sound (and your neighbor's angry voice).
 
When a waiter accidentally loses control of the tray and all the chinaware and glasses fall on the floor, everybody in the restaurant notices.


When you wash the dishes and you unintentionally (and obliviously) drop one of them, it clashes and the sound surprises you and shocks your mother.

But when your heart breaks, no one else hears it. but you. only you. As much as the heart wants to scream all the pain out, it can't. You are the only person who hears its cry.. its call..its breaking sound. And that's what makes it painful.

What makes it more painful is the thought that everybody is trying to help you heal and hold all the pieces together, but it's you who resist. You don't want to. Not yet. Not now. Because you still want the pain to linger. Whatever your reasons are, no one knows it but you.

what make a person's heart break? 

One is, it may be caused by sympathy. When you see someone wounded, whether physically or emotionally, and you share compassion with this person, your heart breaks.  

Second reason is when someone you love dearly has to go. Wherever that person goes, it somehow hurts you because you will surely miss him/her. and it hurts more when you don't know whether this person is coming back or not.

Another may be caused by an end of something beautiful. Something important. Something you thought would never end. Something you never wanted to end. But had to.

I have had several heartbreaks before. Many, I should say. But I endured and surpassed them all. Not the easy way though. I heard my heart screamed, felt it kicked, but I couldn't do anything. I just learned that when your heart breaks, it's like picking up imaginary broken glasses. Too prickly, too painful. And when you're done picking them up, it's time to put the pieces back together. Hold for a while, and heal.

But it's been said, love like you've never been hurt. and may i add -- love like it the first time you laid your eyes upon your first crush in the first grade. :) No matter how many heartbreaks. No matter how painful the last one was, you should not force yourself to forget how to love. ♥♥♥


 

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